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I feel sick, deprived and weak..stop torturing me..I just want to love you and it kills me..please don't end us like this..its not fair..then again.. what is fair anymore? Do you care? Does anyone care anymore? I just want some justification that everything will soon be okay again...but I don't see that happening for a long time..

I want to make decisions that could change my life for the better but every time I make a choice, it seems like the wrong one..please steer me clear of all the demons and help me find the love that hides behind the meanest of your demeanor.. show me that there is a reason for life and that I should live life to the fullest even though there might be harsh trials that will knock me down...that I would just have to learn to get back up again and keep fighting for the happiness that awaits from hard work...

Show me something that will get me through..tell me something that will reassure me and keep me from straying from the path too far...

Love me so much that it would make up for tomorrow...for tomorrow..I might not be around..

So please love me..